The Diary of Jay Gatsby
Entry #1 April 28, 1922
Today was like any other day. I hosted yet another party, and still she has not come. This party was indeed grand, with many people and fellow neighbors, and the whole house brightly lit. All who have been invited came without hesitation. Many others whom I have seen, but were not invited, come as well. I saw no problem in their presence. Later in the evening, I met my neighbor, Nick Carraway. He is indeed a fine gentleman. We talked for several minutes, until he left to go home for the evening. Throughout the whole night, I continued to wonder where she was, and why she had not come yet. I stood out on the lawn, looking across to her house, staring at the green light. And beyond the green light, there is my prize. The distance between us is short; however she is far off to a point where I can not seem to reach out to. Paidoussis 163
Entry#2 May 3, 1922
Today was a day I could never forget. I have been waiting five long years for a day like this to come. The dream I have held for so long has finally come true. After five long years, I came face to face with the woman I fell in love with in Louisville. When I had seen her today, I was dumbfounded, standing there, looking at her, sweating in my suit. She is just as gorgeous as I have always remembered. We spoke, slowly and with ease. I finally feel as if that gap between us had finally been filled. From the moment we met, to this very day, I still hold the feelings I always had for her.Paidoussis 123
Entry #3 July 15th, 1922
I now have had the biggest surprise I could have ever had. I now see that what Daisy once told me was not a lie, or a joke, but an honest truth. She does indeed have a child. When I first heard this, I thought that it couldn’t be true, but now it is a hardened fact. Today at lunch, while sitting with Daisy, Nick and Jordan, Daisy’s daughter came into the room, walking with her sitter. At this point in time, I was truly shocked and found myself speechless due to this shock which I had held within. I do, however, find Daisy’s daughter to be a darling angel, and a very well mannered youth. I suppose I must get used to taking care of Daisy’s daughter and having her around. Paidoussis 137
August 5th, 1922
With a heavy heart, I write this to you. All of the plans I had with Daisy vanished. Going to the Buchanan’s house was a mistake. Things throughout the day heated up between Tom and I. He kept ripping on me and Daisy waivered between the two of us. She said, “You want too much”. She could not deny loving Tom. Then Tom proceeded to expose all of the secrets of my business. Daisy did not like what I have done. I myself am not very proud of it, but still… I did it all for her. For Daisy, my love.
Daisy chose to stay with Tom.
I do not know what to thing. What he has that I do not will remain a mystery to me. The only thing I know is she did not choose me. Am I really that much of a failure?
How could she do this to me? After I did for her….. I loved her.
Did she truly love me?
I cannot see myself in the future. I feel lost. All my plans vaporized. I am supposed to be in Louisville.
What do I do now?
I still love Daisy….
I cannot stop now… I need to think this one through.
I am going for a swim
Madinger 216
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